Crisis of Faith...

Dear God,

I need some clarification here..

K, so I know the most amazing woman in the world. She has spent her life devoted to You, and to helping everyone around her! Every year she collects everyones coppers, and saves for what we call "Mar-Mars blind boys". Everyday she opens her home to anyone that's upset, or just in need of a cuppa. She NEVER EVER complains, ever.

She had a stroke a few years back, and always told us she'd just broken her leg running for the bus =P

Even now, as I watch her becoming more frail, and helpless... she doesn't complain, and is still as generous as ever... And is lying in her bed, surrounded by her Rosaries, crosses, prayers, you name it, I find myself asking: God.. this woman has done nothing to harm anyone for her entire life, nothing but love and help... Why would you curse her with such a horrible illness, such a long, drawn out illness... That's not only hurting her, but everyone she's ever cared for too..

My little brother, "Mar-Mars boy" as he's called, is the only one not to cry, the only one that could hold it together when we visited her today. Afterwards, he comforted me when he saw I was upset. He's going to be just like her when he grows up, a loving person! He keeps asking why everyone else is crying though... He has it figured out, but I'm betting he just doesn't want it to be true... "Y'know, I really love Mar-Mar" he keeps saying, "She's my favourite Auntie"

It was so hard to say goodbye today, she's like a 3rd nanny, but better! Leaving her room, where she's bedridden now, she said "Keep me in your prayers, love".
See, even then God, she's still keeping her faith in you! I told her I would, and kept telling her I loved her, over and over again, and said I'd see her at the weekend...

My point is, WHY? Why make her go through this!? This... cancer!!! She does not deserve this!! No-one does!

Please, stop this! Because if Auntie Maura's taken, we'll all be lost...

Yours,

Love.

Frustration...

So school starts back today, and it's like, the frustration and misery I worked out over the break all flows back... Who'd have thought one building could cause so much anger and upset?
I step off the bus, and the second my foot hits the ground I get nervous...

The day starts with the cold art classroom, the best possible class I could begin with. Then talk of hanging our paintings up commences. What classes shall we take of then? 3 last classes tomorrow? Sounds great! What do I have the... And I remember, Irish =/

Irish is the singular bane of my life! I love the language, and I love being Irish! But the class is the one part of the day that causes knots in my stomach as I dread its approach! I can never understand a word said! Confusion much!? And everytime I'm asked a question I screw up, soo humiliating, and she pauses, and looks at me for ages while I get embarrassed! I hate it so much!
And then the homework... I shant get started on that...

I come home to my house stripped of it's Christmas Décor for another season, tis sad really... Even the cat appears to miss the Christmas tree!

In other news, Angie and J.B. are still missing... I'm getting worried, but my Mum keeps saying "They'll come back when they're hungry! Don't worry!" -Tis been almost a week... I know I'd be hungry =[

My flabber is well and truly gasted.

Well after a long, and tiring weekend, I'm just ready to curl up and sleep for the next few days!... well, until school starts back anyways =/

Had my lovely nerd-camp buddies came to stay, causing much sleep to be lost! Serial, 3 days of no sleep, *yawness*

The one thing about being around them is we can say absolutely anything to each other! And we get creative with our poking-fun at each other... Par example I made a "darling" song about one:

When you're looking down the street and a car goes by,

You'll see 2 old guys getting high,

It's Alan, and Herbert, The perverti,

Singing- My oh my!

You'd better lock your children up,

Or they'll be lured with 7up!

Alan proceeds to remove their clothes,

While Herbert watches through the windows!

Tis yet to be finished, but we think tis coming along nicely ^^